I'm ok with it.

Well, I'm here with an update. I was down about 20 and then back up 2lbs and so forth. My body is doing the up and down dance so today it's about 20lbs gone.  I know that's not too shabby but it's coming off a bit slower this time around. I know it's because I haven't been working as hard because this time I decided to take it easier on my body. I worked myself so hard last time. I mean at about 9 weeks postpartum I was training to run a 5k and my body was paying the price. I had lost 39lbs by 4 months postpartum and 27lbs by about 9-10 weeks postpartum. I was losing weight but not gaining muscle and I was in serious pain all the time. I was pushing my body too hard and my pelvis injury was not healing well. And not too mention the love I did not have for myself or my body...I didnt feel worth it...not one bit!

So what's changed this time around is I love my body even at this weight. It's not my ideal weight but my life is good and I am a beautiful woman! I love myself enough to take it much slower, enjoy my baby, allow myself my babymoon and just love life!

And I want to lose weight but I also want to gain muscle mass not lose it as I lose fat.  I want to let my pelvis heal and not be in pain all the time!

And I find it so hard to hate on myself when my husband of 20 years is constantly telling me I'm beautiful, hot, pretty, etc.. That's what he sees when he looks at me and how can I see anything else?

So, it will all come off. 30lbs to go. In time...and I'm ok with that!!